I watched the movie "Breakthrough" with friends. I saw so much of myself in this mother. However, it was my husband, Bishop Kenneth, that I was standing in faith for--against all the odds. We frequented hospitals every year from November 1989 to January 2015 when Ken decided--no more. Parts of the movie were so emotional (nothing new for me). Since we saw so many more miracles before my husband passed, someday, I will write a sequel to my book, "Eyewitnessed, Believe What You Cannot See." Somewhere in between that, I have to finish KaShanta's book, Ken's sequel to "Solomon"... Daddy was correct. I should have been born triplets. LOL!
July 31st is our wedding anniversary. We would have been together for a total of forty-eight years. Our bond became so strong, we could complete each other's sentences and sometimes speak one another's mind. We even dreamed the same dreams sometimes and once at the same time. We went through hell and the floods. Several times as Ken was dying (just like in this movie), he would hear my voice and fight--always came back.
The last time I watched him fight death (momentarily) was October 2, 2018. Our youngest daughter, Mia, and her daughter were here for several days. As he always wanted--family members were around his bed, and I was holding his hand. From the onset of his illnesses, he declared that he would not die until he was ready. He did just that thirty-one years later. Several, including our youngest daughter with her daughter, our oldest daughter, a spiritual son with his wife, Pastor and his wife, witnessed his departure along with me. We sang some of his favorite songs to usher him into the presence of Jesus.
At times, I would walk out of the room, walk back in and say something, so he would turn to me and open his eyes again. Or if I just could not help myself and kiss him again, he would open his eyes and just look at me. Finally, I told him not to mind me because I couldn't help myself, but for him to make his journey. So he stopped fighting. We are sure that he checked out of his physical body before we saw his chest rise and fall for the last time. We felt that he observed us for a bit. Simultaneously, I was brokenhearted and relieved--so conflicted. Basically, I had watched him die for two years.
The Friday before his passing, he called our remaining three children and told them that he wanted me to go to Hollywood as scheduled and wanted them to support me. He understood all to well that God has a purpose for it, but he also knew I was hesitant about leaving him. I'm convinced that was another reason he wanted to be in the presence of the Lord so quickly. He was placed on hospice on a Friday and left earth the following Tuesday. He was funny during those days, told all of us what he wanted us to do at his service, etc. He instructed me to sing, 'Going Up Yonder'! It was my first time, but I did it. One day, I'm going up yonder too, but we will all be coming back to reign on the new earth with Jesus. That's my comfort. I guess I'm chatty because of our approaching anniversary. I will celebrate it!
Destiny – a predetermined course of events
You were born to win. After all, of the millions of sperm released, you swam to your mother's egg. You are a WINNER! :)
God is not a man that he would lie. Satan is the father of lies. God is love, and God is truth. His Word is the final authority. PERIOD! If God says I am, then I am because it is not predicated on how I feel but on what He said.
ON THE THRESHOLD OF A DREAM
When you are about to cross the threshold of a dream, purpose, destiny, the enemy will always come with his plan to kill, steal, and destroy. If we hold fast to the word of the Lord, rhema or logos, the best attempt by the prince of darkness will only be a hindrance and not termination.
Logos refers principally to the inspired Word of God - the promises of the Bible and Jesus, the living Word. The second Greek word translated “word” is rhema, which refers to the spoken word and literally means a prophetic utterance.
JOHN 10:10-11 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I have come that they might have life and that they might have it more abundantly. I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep.
If the devil came to Jesus with temptations and deceptions, don’t think it strange when he comes to you. For who are we? No servant is ever greater than his master. The clue is to know the word of God. Hide it in your heart so that it is not easily uprooted.
Scripture declares that there has no temptation taken you, but such as is common to man, but God will with the temptation provide a way of escape. The trick is to choose the way that He makes. The flesh will never want to take the correct route. We must continuously beat it into subjection.
When the storms come and beat upon that house, that dream, vision, your destiny, it will stand.
Be doers of the word and not hearers only deceiving your ownselves. James 1:22
MATTHEW 7:26Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.
Rains came down, floodwaters rose up, and the wind in between, but Jesus. That’s the difference Jesus makes.
John 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
In the world…everybody in the world: the good, the bad, the ugly. If you’re out in the rain without an umbrella, you will get wet – no exceptions – no matter who you are.
Matthew 7:27 And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house, and it fell: and great was the fall of it.
There is no VICTORY outside of Jesus – only a partial, temporary deception at best. VICTORY is in Jesus. Victory is Jesus.
Satan, through Herod, tried to kill Jesus in his infant stage and so he’ll pursue you in the same manner. He made attempts on Jesus’ life until Jesus laid it down. The sooner he kills you, the better he likes it.
I Swallowed Glass and Acid
The devil’s first attempt on my life was as a baby. I ate glass and acid, which deteriorated my stomach linings and cut my insides going down, and as I regurgitated, but my parents got me to the hospital in the nick of time. Never would have made it without HIM. I’ve been in 14 vehicular accidents and obviously survived them all – pretty bruised and traumatized in my body from some of them, but Jesus made the difference.
Sometimes it’s an enemy raised up by the Lord to prove you – sometimes because of disobedience. But what the devil means for your demise, God causes your uprise. A mighty resurrection.
When you are about to enter your destiny, there is always opposition from Satan designed to prevent you from fulfilling your destiny. It’s much easier to kill an infant than it is to kill a trained special forces warrior.
But what did Jesus show us? He was consistently retreating for that alone time with the Father, a quiet place to hear his voice as he inquired of him. God strengthened him, and he defeated Satan continuously and EVEN in his death. Now, how ironic is that? When we die to ourselves, we overcome Satan too. David, like Jesus, learned to always enquire of God when confronted with battle, and as a result, he never lost a battle, because God always gave him a strategy. He suffered from personal conflicts in his life, but it worked together for his good. HE ALWAYS CAUSES US TO TRIUMPH!
2 Corinthians 2:14 Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savor of his knowledge by us in every place. (uses us to spread the aroma of the knowledge of him everywhere.)
Beware of the enemy's strategy to attack you in the place of your destiny. He desires to take you off this divine path. Seek the Lord, and listen for His answer. Then, we will fulfill the purpose for which God created us.
We may lose some battles or skirmishes along the way, but we win the war. Victory is ours! In that sense, we are fail-proof.
Memories from one of my journals in 2010!
Not that I have already obtained it [this goal of
being Christlike] or have already been made perfect, but I actively press on so
that I may take hold of that [perfection] for which Christ Jesus took hold of
me and made me His own.
Bishop Sims is now resting in the presence of the Lord. In 2009, he had open-heart surgery. His heart was still strong, but he had leaky heart
valves, both the mitral and tricuspid, which caused much of the blood to flow in the opposite
direction. It drained him of his energy and caused other
problems. The surgeon was able to repair it.
I Had a Dream
Before we left for Oklahoma City, I had a dream. Danger
pursued me, but I was determined that it would not catch me nor overtake
me. I ran faster than humanly possible, and pretty soon, I was in the air
- defying gravity, flying above it all. I zoomed over the enemy and
beyond his reach - high above every threat of danger. I
felt free and relaxed and began to enjoy the sensational experience and
thanked God for his divine protection. What a breathtaking sight it
was! Although it was dark, there were lights everywhere in the
city: the valleys, mountains, crevices, etc. I never wanted to come
When I woke up, I knew that we would have some dark times in the city, but the dream signified that we would rise above it all. We did defy gravity in a spiritual sense.
It was revealed to me that the body of Christ all over the nation was
praying for us – they were those lights. I felt so undergirded. My husband shared this message:
“Thank you for your consistencies in prayer for my wife and me in our trying times. God did most certainly bare me up on eagles wings during this dark hour of my life. I felt the converging of the body of Jesus like I've never felt it before. The mountains of denominations locked hands, and nothing else mattered but the will of our heavenly Father. God is so perfect!” ~Bishop Ken Sims (2010)
they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up
with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk
and not faint.
The Lord reminded me that no matter what, I
have to take the heavenly viewpoint instead of the earthly perspective,
for we are seated in celestial places in Christ Jesus.
Determined that we would not miss our assignments
at the hospital, I ministered every day - sometimes for hours and even while
in CCU with my husband. It
took two days for some of the side effects from medications to wear off, but when
it did, he ministered to nurses when his pain level was off the charts. He spoke slowly and quietly. One nurse sat
beside him for an hour and went to tell her friends. Her actions reminded me of the Samaritan at
the well. Three more came in, so we continued
to minister for thirty more minutes.
Being hospitalized had many spiritual rewards.
My mind is indelibly marked by an experience with a woman named Jamie, who's
mother was having heart surgery at the same time as my husband, Ken. Her
lungs were failing. Jamie had been
looking for me for four days and started crying when she found me. Her mother’s condition worsened, and she
Chaplains were available; however, she grabbed my
hand and took me to her mom to pray for her.
I felt honored to be the Lord’s instrument. Many were watching for the outcome. Fortunately,
I was able to continue building on the faith foundation that began four days
earlier while in the waiting room. I
magnified the Lord by sharing some of our many testimonies. Initially, her
mother, Ms. Kathy, was not aware of anything, but when I started softly singing
about the name of Jesus, she could not be still. Jamie was thrilled. We were at the heart hospital for ten
days; Ms. Kathy continued to improve each day.
It was a hard fight to get clear of here. This time was very challenging
and demanding on our bodies, minds, and spirits. Never-the-less, we stood
and we overcame by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.
He is Jehovah Rapha, the Lord who heals us!
Whether you have a physical heart problem as Bishop Sims did or if you have spiritual heart issues, you need a surgeon. If our hearts are uncircumcised, we too have leaky valves and
are unable to love and forgive like Jesus.
The lives we lead flow in the opposite direction of God’s preference for
us. We are drained of energy and are frequently
faced with insurmountable problems.
Jesus is the surgeon who will repair, renew, and remake your heart. He will circumcise your heart so that you can
be in covenant with him - he helps us to cut away the works of the flesh. If you allow him, he will give you a clean
heart so that you can serve him.
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore if any person is [ingrafted] in Christ (the Messiah) he is a new creation (a new creature altogether); the old [previous moral and spiritual condition] has passed away. Behold, the fresh and new has come!
In 1989, my husband and
I met a couple at church that became very dear friends to us. They had a daughter and a younger son. The husband was blind, diabetic, and had
undergone a kidney transplant and dialysis.
He was a patient with numerous medical complications. His wife also had several disorders.
As God would have it,
the ladies of the church planned a weekend retreat. One of Webster’s definitions
for a retreat is to move away from something disagreeable, difficult or
dangerous. An antonym is advance. What we really experienced was an advancement
of our spirit, body, and soul: mind, will, emotions and intellect. Engulfed and empowered by the presence of the
Lord, we were propelled to further advance the kingdom of God in the earth. Praise and worship lifted us to new heights of
glorifying Jesus during this time. Anointed
leaders challenged and inspired us to a deeper walk. The fellowship was grand and the food was
delectable - that down-home southern cooking like Grandma used to do. Really!
All the food was homemade and homegrown.
How often do we attempt maneuvers without
assessing the dangers involved?
It was a much-needed
getaway for the women and the schedule did allow for some rest and relaxation. We went for a swim in Lake Tiak O’Khata. Actually, I played in the shallow part after
I nearly drowned. Now I understand what
is meant when I hear one say, “My life flashed before my eyes.” I descended in a manner that caused me to
torpedo from the slide into the deep. My friend, Nelda was a very good swimmer
but was not nearby. However, she sensed
that I was in grave danger and quickly made her way to be of assistance to
me. How often do we attempt maneuvers
without assessing the dangers involved?
Time was of the essence so I cried out to the Lord to save me. The water was murky and I thought I would
soon meet my Creator. Honestly, I don’t
even remember how I made it back to safety, but there is no doubt in my mind that
the Lord is the responsible party. I
felt myself gliding through the water back to the shallow area. The Lord had compassion on
The Psalmist said, “In my
distress, I called
upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came
before him, even into his ears. (Psalms
On the drive to Louisville, the wife and I just happened to ride in the same vehicle – in the
back seat – side-by-side – with one other person in the rear. This was in no way a chance encounter. I don’t even believe in that. Although three other ladies accompanied us in
this car, I do not remember who they were – only Sandy. Of course, it was a divine set up – for both
of us. The Father had at least a four-fold
for Sandy to share her heartbreaking
story with me
for compassion to move
me to minister to the needs of that family
for our families to build
for the two of them to
minister to us when my husband was diagnosed with kidney failure four years
That family’s plight
made an indelible mark on my mind. I
listened and was filled with compassion.
The very nature of the word compassion is a call to action.
Compassion is an emotion
accompanied by action.
Sympathy is the feeling
that you care about and are sorry about someone else’s trouble, grief, misfortune,
And Jesus went
forth, and saw a great multitude, and was moved with compassion toward them, and he healed
So Jesus had compassion on them, and touched
and immediately their eyes received sight, and they followed him.
Ken and I didn‘t have
much money, but we wanted to help. I
remember the Lord telling me to use what was in my hand. My husband and I would go out to their house
in the country and do whatever we could find for our hands to do. After helping around the house, we would
often have praise sessions because Norman played the guitar until he lost his
fingers. We would be on such a spiritual
high when we left. I think we benefitted
more than our friends did.
My family, including my deceased mother and father, loves to
give to deserving people and organizations as much as we possibly can. But giving is not just about money. Give your time, your love, your talent, and
whatever the Lord lays on your heart.
Get creative, if you want to give.
Where there is a will, you can always find a way to do so.
foundation is the 501c(3) that was birthed out of the heart of our deceased
daughter to aid HER2 Triple Negative breast cancer patients and the homeless:
what's in your hands (not just your wallet) and use it to help someone else.
Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold of eternal life to which you were summoned
and [for which] you confessed the good confession [of faith] before
many witnesses. 1 Timothy 6:12
Fight the Good Fight
never let the enemy force you to back down
Continue to fight the good fight of faith if you desire to wear a crown
As believers, don't go through hell on earth and miss the rapture
Satan has only a little time remaining before his long awaited capture
We need to live everyday like we were dying
We can't go on passing people who are hurting and crying
When we die daily to self, Christ is richly alive in us
So search for wondering souls who are lost in the Kingdom, it's a must
Wear all your armor given every single day
In spiritual warfare, fight to kill, that's how you keep the devil at bay
It's time to do war on the flesh
so it won't be the one thing that keeps knocking us
March bravely around the enemy's camp
and watch the walls fall down when you
Satan's playing for keeps
and ultimately his mission is to destroy our very
Let's fall down on our knees and go before the throne room in repentance
Christ is waiting,
waiting for His warriors to take their rightful place
And give the kingdom of darkness a big blow to the face
Hit the enemy in his weakest spot by constantly reminding him of what's to come
Continue to fight the good fight of faith soldier, for the battle is already won
I have fought the good [worthy, honorable, and noble] fight, I have finished
the race, I have kept [firmly held] the faith. 2 Timothy 4:7